n'est pas

"Strange. Zombie-like. I hated him. But I had this strange fascination. Kind of love and sexual addiction for him. I'm not sure what attracted me to him unless it was some kind of abberration brought about by drugs which I was so heavily innundated by. Speed is the ultimate all-time high. That first rush. Wow. Just that burning serum soaring senses. Perfection. Like a 24-hour climax which can go on for days. There's no way to explain it unless you've been through it. There's no way to tell anyone who hasn't tasted it...keep that superlative high just on the cusp of each day, so that I can radiate sunshine. He just seemed like some strange vision...alienated from the human race."
-Edie Sedgwick in Ciao, Manhattan!