n'est pas

My summary of 2005 thus far:

Around 24 hours ago my favorite person told me that they would rather spend time being alone than with me.

Apparently my lack thereof is better company, which kind of sucks because I was actually starting to enjoy real things and sober things and it was nice to maybe try and make someone else happy because you think they are lonely and need someone there. But hey, wrong again. Back to pharmaceuticals and shallow hook-ups because that's way better than being with someone you actually like.
I am looking forward to it so much that I have not eaten or slept in 24 hours. I am numb with anticipation.

Oh and I am forgoing resolutions in favor of reasons to get out of bed.